Blogblock

I'm surely cursed with bloggersblock.

Looking at the dates that show the last time I blogged...it's a sad story right there.

I don't even know what to say right now, though I feel it's important I do say something, rather then say nothing at all.

First and foremost, I'm coming home the 23rd-27th. I truly have the best friends in the whole world; friends that reach out to me when I'm so down I'm not functioning, and grant me (without asking I might add) an easy solution. That solution being a plane ticket home.

I cannot wait to see Mesa's smiling face and catch up with the number one man in my life. He honestly is one of the few men I trust, he's never done me wrong, and I can't wait to hug someone so near and dear to my heart. I almost lost him due to outside circumstances this year, and I can't wait to see him and tell him how much I love him! Having a best friend like him, is truly something to be thankful for. He's taught me alot of things, and I couldn't be more thankful for such a wonderful rock in my life.

The same goes with Moge; the only girl I've ever truly befriended. Sure I've had girlfriends in the past, but never did I know with every inch of me that any of them would surely be my friend for life. And that's how it is with Morgan. We have had small tiffs here and there, none of which are big enough to remember, but she's a smart chick, and we just get each other. So, in the midst of a disagreement, we glare at each other, say we "hate" each other, throw out some honest opinions...and then start laughing, and life moves on. She's my better half, and the downest chick I've ever met. Her life was also put in danger this year and I was then overwhelmed with the feeling of what could have happened if her condition worsened. Again, can't wait to hug such an awesome person.

Of course I can't wait to see others I miss so much. My brother & my nephews being a big part of that. My Bro and I need some sibling time and there is mas Tequila to be had there. Can't wait eat some of my Auntie Loretta's yummy food, catch up, and seek advice for the future. She never lets me down for a good chat and the feeling of being loved. I'm also excited to spend some time with the Leutholds. Bring Kimmie some coffee, butt heads with Todd, see my sissy Ash, be overwhelmed with food and love by Carol, tease Bryan, and of course, see my cows =]. I'm also seeing and having lunch with some friends I haven't seen in forever; it'll be nice to catch up and see where they are in there lives.

Seeing a new/old friend as well. Andre. That outta be interesting.

All in all, I'm counting down the days. Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying Utah, I am finding my niche, and I'm not moving back home yet. But these last couple of weeks, have been surprisingly hard for me. I just went into detail about it and decided to delete it instead. It's just been a teary-eyed, on the edge, anxiety filled two weeks, but I've prayed, and I'm confronting my issues with a fresh face and a positive attitude. I can do this.

However, a vacation home, to Oregon (notice I don't say Tillamook, as I don't consider it my home) will make things a little easier.

Let's see, what else.

Work is still going great. It's stressful, as the job requires alot of me, but I earned some Target Gift Cards and a $60.00 and $90.00 bonus in the last two weeks. Those little bonus' pay off for working a little bit more each day.

I'm still living with my Auntie, but doing some house hunting to find a place of my own. It's challenging, as I don't have concrete roommates, but I'm sure it will all work out.

I'm single, as always. I've been on a few dates, no magic, no butterflies. I have gone out on some dates, but I'm not 'seeing' anyone . I've been painfully emotionless in that category since I got here. Oh well, I can't go looking for things like that.

And that's about it.

Randomness.

*Lets see, I loved the movie PS I Love You and was kind of a fan of 27 Dresses.

*I loved my awesome cheese care package I got in the mail the other day and completely exposed my branch to the love that is Tillamook Cheese products. Garlic Chili Pepper may start to be ordered in mass quantities from SLC Utah.

*I'm way excited that Obama is sure to become the Democratic Presidential Nominee. I'm not excited that that hag Clinton has stayed in the race and distracted the unifying of the Democratic Party.

and yah.
that's all.
loves.
Shanny