2/14-2/16

It's been awhile aye? I've been without internet for some time now and probably will be off and on, but I'll be journaling as normal and posting it later. Heres some previous, it's really rough because I never spell checked it and wrote it all really quickly...but you get the idea.

2-14-2008

I’m a little upset that I am not in a wireless zone so I can do my blogging, but Microsoft word and a later publishing time will have to do.

Candis and I are currently stopped at a Dennys for some lunch. It’s a smokey restaurant and I’m not a fan but like I said it will have to do. We have done a lot of traveling! We’ve been on the road for about 5 hours now and we’ve had a lot of fun picture taking! I’m getting to see lots of Oregon that I didn’t know existed. Honestly, I thought all of Oregon was green until I saw what lies on this end of the I-84. It’s wonderful, just as beautiful as the green parts. All the rock formations and mountain, dams and desert lands…all of Oregon is so neat. I really can’t imagine myself settling in any other state, Oregon is too much to miss out on. We are about 1/3 of the way done with our roadtrip.

We’ve done a lot of talking most of the way. I’ve learned a lot more about her religion and we’ve begun talking a lot about my family. Honestly, I’m finding out I may be a bit more then just Indian and Irish, a lot more about our Hells Angels involvement, and some of the major parts of history we’ve been apart of. I can’t even explain how fascinating this is to me! My whole life, the only blood family I’ve had is my brother and my mom, and I never met my mom’s side of the family and I only got my dads when I graduated, so spending this time with Candis is invaluable to me.

Mmmmmm our food is here. I need substance to soak up all of this energy drink. Talk atcha later.!

2-15-2008

The roadtrip is obviously over. We had to leave a day earlier then I had originally planned due to plans my cousin had and the Idaho border closing because of the snow. It was a long trip, and I have a lot of memories, but I’m glad not to be in a car anymore. I’ve always said I love driving and I drove all 16 hours of the trip. It was originally supposed to be something like 13 but we had to do a lot of stopping for pictures, food, and gas. Throughout the trip I discovered Candis has the smallest bladder of anyone I know and rediscovered how much to many energy drinking will really hurt my stomach. Now I’ve never really driven out of state and I’ve decided I really don’t like Idaho. Quite frankely, it’s an ugly state, their roads SUCK, you can’t see any of the painted lines, off ramps and merging lanes are small and unnoticeable, and their drivers are bitches. The only thing I like about that state is it’s speed limit. I was sad to see the leaving Oregon sign but was quickly overjoyed that I could go 75 (was often doing 90 to 100) without getting pulled over. I’m known for riding peoples ass when they drive to slow and for once, someone was up on my car. One guy had the nerve to flash his brights at me while I was driving 90mph to pass me, and once he did I got on his ass and flashed him several times black. He flipped me off and pulled off going much faster then 100mph. I wonder if he’s aware of the NATIONAL law that revokes your license if your in the triple digit speeds? I also learned how much I hate public restrooms. I mean honestly, why do people deface restrooms? When is it ever romantic or even at the very least CREATIVE to write who you love on a stall? Or what about the condom machines? I commend people for using them, but if your trusting that kind of protection from a rusted out dusty machine at a truck stop…you shouldn’t be allowed to reproduce. I also hate the gas prices that go along with those nasty stations. But I will admit, Idaho has cool highway signs. All and all , Candis and I did a lot of talking, rocking out, making random pit stops, and defiantly have created enough inside jokes to last us awhile. I’ll let the pictures tell the rest of our journey.

Today was the first day spent with my family J. I woke up this morning to Candis pulling me outta bed to unpack. At the point, Aunt Tammy, Aunt Sherry, Candis and Hunter and I sat around for about 2 hours talking, laughing and being lazy. I absolutely LOVE Hunter. He is my 4 yr. old cousin and he is the sweetest boy! He loves me J. He cuddles with me and is a freakin crack up. He’s definetly going to make it easier being away from my nephews. We then proceeded to unload my car, and go to a yummy Mexican restaurant with the addition of my cousins Harley & Brooke. My chimi was yummy, but defently made with Kraft cheese. Call me a snob, I don’t care. From there, Aunt Tammy and I went around town and visited some US Banks I want to work for. I’d like to get an in-store Banker positions as it starts around $12.00 and would cross train me in two positions. After that driving, I’ve been home ever since, relaxing with the cousins and unpacking. Now it’s just me and Aunt Tammy at home and I’m in the downstairs still trying to unpack. I’m OVERWHELMED in my belongings everwhere. I’m thinking of finishing it up in the morning.

So how am I dealing with being away from Oregon? Well, it’s too soon to decide, but if there is anyone who loves Oregon, it’s me. I miss it’s beauty all ready. That and the normal street names, Utah is like all set up on grids and numbers…it’s odd. I do miss my friends and family. Honestly, growing up without a family makes you develop some very close friends and I do miss them. I’ll adapt, I just need to unpack my life and find some place to socialize, until then, I’ll bite my lip and pretend not to be lonely. I wish I had gotten more time to say goodbye to certain people and others I wish I had left on better terms with, but for the most past, I did all I could. I’m blessed to have family surrounding and supporting me and making this easier and I will get over it in my own time. I plan to fly home the same week Mesa is home so I can see him and everyone else at the same time. Anyways, I’m going to bed, I need to sleep more and get up and do lots of work.

2-16-2008

I am still without internet and yes, I am starting to feel cut off from the world. The world being Oregon. I’m still blogging with out posting via Microsoft Word and it just doesn’t feel right not to hit the publish button.

I just finished watching I Am Legend. It’s a really good movie; makes me weary of ever hearing about cures to major diseases, but all and all a good movie. It scared my dog at one point, but he faithfully watched the rest of the movie. He really never took his eyes off the screen. Tonight I went to a get-together with Aunt Tammy & Uncle Justin to the house of one of the football moms&dads. Apparently they do this every other weekend or so where one of the sets of parents from the football team all there kids played on, throws a party. Nobody really gets tanked, but theirs social drinking and lotsa sports talk. Lotsa team moms and coaches, one guy close to my age, not really my scene. I got everything moved in today and did a lot of basking by the TV, it’s been so long since I’ve had it it’s like all new to me.

Tomorrow Sharon ( My Grandma) is taking Tammy & I to Breakfast and I’m wondering if she’s going to try and sneak my dad along today for the visit. I know I should be forgiving and spending time, as God would want me to, but I’m just not sure if I’m ready to see him yet. His habits are unchanged so my willingness to let him in is unchanged as well.

This whole having no messenger thing is killing me. At college it was the best way to keep in contact with the people I love and I know they are getting sick of my constant texting. I’m going to have to find a place to get internet or when I figure out what job I want to work I’m going to offer to pay for internet service here. They have a dial-up connection as they do all their internet business while at work and the dial-up won’t configure to my computer. Besides, dial-up just won’t cut it with my webcam or photo blogging/uploading.

I know it’s soon to be planning this, but everyone knows I love to be in Portland to party on holidays so I’m coming home the week of St. Patty’s. Moge & Mesa and I are going go out again. It’s my sisters birthday and I haven’t seen her in a year or so…I’m thinking of paying her a visit as well.

I don’t plan on visiting my mother. She’s under the impression that I called her a cunt and it believing my sister-in-law over me, and until she decides to stop being so two-faced, she is none of my concern. I’m sick of her only caring when it looks good to do so and all the hell she has put me through for moving. When she crawls out of her selfish little hole she dug her self, I’ll pay my visit. Until then, I can’t take her constant drama and stress.

Hmmmm Whatelse. I’m still loving the family but ultimetley lonely. I need some friends to party and club with. I am kinda guy watching, as I’ve been fairly single since March-ish, but honestly I liked someone in Oregon, and I can’t have him. Until I can completely move on past that emotion of being unable to have him, I won’t fill that gap with someone else. I’ll be single, as always. Besides, rumour is in Oregon I’m off to amrry a Mormon and I wouldn’t want to go working on that one would I?

Hah. I’m sleepy. Noku & I are off to bed. Loves

Shan.

I'll blog for today later, I been at this coffee shop to long.

SHAN